A la Node

The creature looked very much like a wasp, very insectile, articulated, inscrutable. Very buzzy. It tilted its head down in a way that should have been quite awkward, but was instead perfectly smooth and mechanically precise. Well, you get this sort of thing with aliens, the unnerving bodily movements, the strange smells, the general… well, alien-ness of them. It looked down at me, and amid the low polyphonic buzzing noises, a voice came, though honestly I never figured out if that voice came from some translation device or was crafted from a superposition of thousands of different pitches of buzz. Frankly, it got annoying sometimes, the buzzing.

It is the fate of small stones, so it is said, to be ground away into dust by the actions of life and the cruel mechanics of the world. It is true of most, in fact, though a few undergo the opposite transformation, accreting layers of mass in the warm wet interior of a kidney, or the cool wet of an oyster. Some, in the vacuum of space, gather into planets.

“Kick the left posterior superior temporal sulcus again.”

“Nothing, Steve, I think it may be burnt out.”

“It can’t be completely trashed, he was at work just yesterday, I swear he felt guilty about not getting that javascript done.”

“Look, the guilt centers just aren’t responding to shocks any more. I put a hot clothes hanger wire into the medial prefrontal cortex the other day, and all I got was a twitch.”

“We’ve got to do something, the last couple of stories, when he’s managed to post, have been crap. The guilt complex is the only thing we’ve got to work with now that the adrenal gland has shriveled up like a raisin.”

“I know, I know. You can only run so much guilt and self loathing through a brain before it loses it’s ability to respond, though. Maybe we could make him sick again? That fever a few weeks ago kept him in bed for days.”

“Yeah, but how much writing did he get done?”

“Point. Anything going on in the ambition centers?”

“Sleep.”

“What?”

“Sleep. Ambition centers are stuck on sleep, have been for a while.”

“Damn. Steve, I hate to say it, but I don’t think we have much choice, he’s running out of time tonight.”

“Well, push the guilt program, maybe he’ll get something done this weekend. If nothing else we’ll suck all the energy out of the system and make sure he doesn’t do anything else.”

“I just hope he appreciates what we’re doing for him.”

It seemed to be made of glass, though Harry assured me almost fervently that it wasn’t. I could see that it wasn’t, didn’t imagine it would be, I had just commented on the appearance – but Harry was oblivious, too habitually jovial to ever really notice his own condescension. I tuned him out and looked at the piece, the depth and sheen of it changing as I looked. I couldn’t seem to find the same perspective twice, it always looked as if it had been turned ever so slightly away from the orientation you saw a moment ago. It made my eyes water.

Harry seemed unusually thrilled with it, or with something. Of course he got paid either way, and for that matter so did I, but to him the prospect of a unique object was exciting, a grand discovery. To me, it would be a defeat, which is why it was not going to happen, Harry’s good mood be damned.

In the infinite dark of a hollow space deep within a cold dead nickle-iron asteroid long divorced from the sun that had once held it in thrall, lived a Mind. In the darkness it thought about the universe into which it had been born, of the ancient times when it had walked free on the surface of a world teeming with life. It thought of the wars and plagues that had taken away, bit by bit, that embarrassment of riches. It thought of the millenia of struggling desperation, the migrations, the sorrows, the collapse. It did not think itself lucky to have survived.

As long as the universe outside the cold metal shell held some trace of heat, it would remain. As long as it remained, it would remember.

It was the last dying thought of a race long gone, it contained everything they had known, everything they had considered, observed, imagined. All their works recorded, all their thoughts set in eternal motion. In the darkness, it remembered, remembered the very birth of life and its long and painful end. It mourned, and knew mourning in exquisite detail.

It knew as well what had gone wrong. Too late now, but in dying the answers were laid bare. Perhaps in those final moments every creature understands the flaws of its life, or perhaps only the accursed few are given the insight of ending. The Mind knew the mistakes that had been made, knew how it could all have been repaired, what path could have led them all out of the darkness. It was only in the ending, the passage into death, that the circle could be completed. Having taken into itself everything that they were, and having watched them pass, it knew how they they could have been saved.

It was a shock then, to find the darkness penetrated by a brilliant light. The news came to it in words and images and emotions: they lived yet, and hungered for the solutions it had seen in their ashes. Come to us, they said, you have seen our end, now tell us how to live.

In the Dark by Kenneth Lett is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-Noncommercial-Share Alike 3.0 United States License.

Once upon a time a mouse found an enchanted sword. It was small and fit his little paws perfectly. He took the sword and used it to defend himself and other mice from their enemies, from cats and owls and dogs and snakes. He slew a great tomcat, and became the most famous mouse of all time. He was the first hero he mice had ever had, but when they spoke of him, they always spoke of the sword as well.

‘Oh, the Hero and his amazing Sword’, they would say, or ‘Thank the great God that the Sword came to our Hero’. The hero himself began to think very ill of this. He grew angry that the credit for his feats was shared with the sword, as if his own bravery and cunning were only a minor part of his own accomplishments.

One day he took the sword and thrust it deep into a cobblestone of flint. “I am done with the sword, for a hero needs nothing but his own bravery and intelligence,” he proclaimed.

He strode away from the crowd of stunned mice and found the largest of the feral dogs that plagued the mouse community, and he slew it with a toothpick. He climbed into the high trees where the owls nested, and he drove them out of the forest one by one. He sought the snakes in their underground tunnels, and tied them into knots.

When he returned from his quest, the other mice seemed enthralled by something going on in the clearing. A handsome young mouse had wrapped his paws around the handle of the enchanted sword and was heaving mightily at it, trying to release it from the heavy stone. As the hero approached, the young mouse pulled the sword free and held it above his head in triumph.

The hero watched as all the mice cheered the new young hero, and then we walked quietly out of the clearing.

The Hero of Mice, and his Sword by Kenneth Lett is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-Noncommercial-Share Alike 3.0 United States License.

The soot poured out in clouds, inky black billows that cast surreal shadows on the pristine white carpet before settling from the air to make those shadows a permanent feature. Heavy back boots settled down onto the fire, revealing unreasonably clean red pant legs above. I would have sworn no human body could fit into that chimney, and even if i were wrong about that, no rational explanation exists for the complete lack of soot on the man’s bright red suit, the failure of a large cheerful fire to burn of singe it.

He bent down to step out of the fireplace, bent far too low, stepped out of a space that wasn’t sufficient to hold him in the first place. Space became putty around him, size and shape suddenly fluid concepts, flexible restraints on the reality around him. He was a big man, but not slow, not awkward. His smooth animal grace was frightening, unreal. We cowered behind the couch, our eyes peeking over the back frozen in incredulous terror.

He, perhaps It, stepped lightly across the room to the tree. The strange star atop it illuminated the massive costumed figure but seemed to leave the rest of the room in darkness. The big man seemed to acknowledge the pulsing ethereal light  briefly before placing two wrapped packages gently on the floor, and it seemed to me the acknowledgment was mutual.

It was the star we had found in the crowded and musty old second-hand store we had wandered into in the fall, and had never been able to locate on subsequent trips into town. I remembered thinking it beautiful but oddly discomfiting, Steven had insisted on  bringing it home. In its blue-violet glow, was had sat before the tree and talk to each other of our wishes.

That was last night. Tonight, on the eve of Christmas, the last thing we had expected was for those wishes to be granted, and certainly not by Santa Claus himself. The specter before us was undeniable, though, the beautifuly wrapped boxes on the floor had the size and the dreamlike certainty about them that convinced me they contained precisely what Steven and I had said we wanted.

Then, as the impossible figure crossed the floor to the fireplace, he turned. The face that peered directly at our hidden face was the archetype of jolly, the very essence of cheer and robust good humor. He put a finger to the side of his large nose. His eyes were black voids, dark like the space between stars, threatening to suck us in.

He bent down and stepped into the fire, oblivious of the flames and the very impossibility of the act, and then he was gone. Soot black footprints marked his path back and forth across the room, stark black impossibilities on white carpet that glowed in the light of a gently pulsing star.

The little voice in the back of my head told me to sign the agreement. It didn’t feel right, but I suppose that was the whole point. After all, doing what felt right was playing right into their hands.

How did I end up here? I ask myself that quite a lot, but the answer bears repeating. Our descendants will remember this day, so let me spell it out, there is an important lesson here about Human ingenuity.