Monthly Archives December 2009

35 – Twas the Night Before

The soot poured out in clouds, inky black billows that cast surreal shadows on the pristine white carpet before settling from the air to make those shadows a permanent feature. Heavy back boots settled down onto the fire, revealing unreasonably clean red pant legs above. I would have sworn no human body could fit into that chimney, and even if i were wrong about that, no rational explanation exists for the complete lack of soot on the man’s bright red suit, the failure of a large cheerful fire to burn of singe it.

He bent down to step out of the fireplace, bent far too low, stepped out of a space that wasn’t sufficient to hold him in the first place. Space became putty around him, size and shape suddenly fluid concepts, flexible restraints on the reality around him. He was a big man, but not slow, not awkward. His smooth animal grace was frightening, unreal. We cowered behind the couch, our eyes peeking over the back frozen in incredulous terror.

He, perhaps It, stepped lightly across the room to the tree. The strange star atop it illuminated the massive costumed figure but seemed to leave the rest of the room in darkness. The big man seemed to acknowledge the pulsing ethereal light  briefly before placing two wrapped packages gently on the floor, and it seemed to me the acknowledgment was mutual.

It was the star we had found in the crowded and musty old second-hand store we had wandered into in the fall, and had never been able to locate on subsequent trips into town. I remembered thinking it beautiful but oddly discomfiting, Steven had insisted on  bringing it home. In its blue-violet glow, was had sat before the tree and talk to each other of our wishes.

That was last night. Tonight, on the eve of Christmas, the last thing we had expected was for those wishes to be granted, and certainly not by Santa Claus himself. The specter before us was undeniable, though, the beautifuly wrapped boxes on the floor had the size and the dreamlike certainty about them that convinced me they contained precisely what Steven and I had said we wanted.

Then, as the impossible figure crossed the floor to the fireplace, he turned. The face that peered directly at our hidden face was the archetype of jolly, the very essence of cheer and robust good humor. He put a finger to the side of his large nose. His eyes were black voids, dark like the space between stars, threatening to suck us in.

He bent down and stepped into the fire, oblivious of the flames and the very impossibility of the act, and then he was gone. Soot black footprints marked his path back and forth across the room, stark black impossibilities on white carpet that glowed in the light of a gently pulsing star.

On the occasion of flying home

There has been some stir recently over a new airport passenger scanning technology that supposedly reveals the naked body (in false color) many airline passengers keep concealed beneath their clothing. I thought about it while waiting for 20 minutes to slowly run all of my belongings through an x-ray machine and step through a metal detector at the Portland airport (Port of Portland, motto: “Because coffee beans don’t grow in Oregon”).

It’s a privacy worry for many, these new magic x-ray glasses.

Privacy. It’s not about having something to hide, it’s about not having someone look at every single thing you do, naked or otherwise. I wonder though, is the technology really the problem? Sure, the machines make it easier to observe you, but the truth is, there has been plenty of technology for a long time that allows interested parties to learn whatever they want about you. Before Google had access to all your searching habits and the contents of your email, before grocery stores gave you discount cards  in exchange for tracking every single purchase you make, before the cops could watch you through your own walls with infra-red cameras, before the mailman could see what mail you got from who, before the social security number became a de-factor national ID number the faceless Federal Bureaucrats  could use to track you… sorry, when I started that sentence, I thought I could go back in time to a point when privacy was not a tenuous concept at constant threat from technology, but I can’t.

The point is, if people want to know, they will probably be able to find out, new technology or not. Real privacy, immunity to snooping, has always been difficult, its price is paranoia and the sacrifice of interaction with the public sphere – not a price most are willing to pay. The tools exist. Cameras, scanners, credit cards and the EasyPass are only part of the equation, just as good old fashioned spying was long before the ubiquity of technology. The other major factor has always been Society, and its oft errant offspring the Law.

I posit that at any time in the history of this country, the privacy of any individual was solely defined by the legality and commercial value of spying on them. Not the technology, not the cameras. Tools have always been there, always in an arms race with the counter-tools of privacy-loving paranoiacs, but never inadequate for the job. (Keep in mind the most basic tool has always been with us, plain old human nature.)

Just as security theater does not make us safer, the new scanner will not take more of our privacy – the laws that prescribe its use, our willingness to accept the scanning,  and the forces that are sustained by that security theater, those are the things that make everything most personal to us public.

34 – The Thin End of the Curve

The little voice in the back of my head told me to sign the agreement. It didn’t feel right, but I suppose that was the whole point. After all, doing what felt right was playing right into their hands.

How did I end up here? I ask myself that quite a lot, but the answer bears repeating. Our descendants will remember this day, so let me spell it out, there is an important lesson here about Human ingenuity.

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33 – Based on a True Story

When it was time to sell the books, it wasn’t easy for me. I took boxes of them in, pared down the shelf to only those that really mattered to me, ones I would read again, ones I would give to friends to read. I could always buy more books. They took up so much space, and I needed the cash now. In time, they all went, each one a little pang, a little bit of anger at the world that wouldn’t let me keep the precious things I had acquired.

Anyway, they say getting rid of clutter is good for you psychologically.

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32 – Elsa

The problem was not just that someone’s old thesis project held the keys to saving what was left of the human race. It wasn’t just that the little kit-box of electronics wouldn’t communicate with the network, nor that its only interface was a screen, a camera and microphone. No, the problem was that it didn’t want to talk to them.

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